"A whole era of my life has just ended in bitter disappointment.
And i want to be by myself and think how a fool i've been.
I've wasted so much time and energy thinking about him and now i know that's all it was - a dream.
I don't feel as if i know him anymore.
Being crazy about him, thinking myself in love with him, all seems like the most childish thing in the world now.
I can hardly feel his existence anymore.
But why do i still have all those feelings, memories, dreams of him?"