sort of frustrated.
on the contrary, i'm kinda smiley today.
maybe i really need this holiday.
...
i've not been giving myself much attention.
i need long showers.
sleep hours.
some shopping...
... and maybe karaoke.
de-stress mautz.
...
last saturday, i just realised that i can sleep while standing.
leaning against the train door that is.
oh my, eu should see...
how i was crammed into such a tiny space in the train.
i didnt even have space to lift up my hand to read a message on my hp.
what's worse... is those peeps who rushed in the train before we have time alight.
*idiots*
...
that aside.
want to spend my day right.
no arguing.
no anger.
no temper.
nothing.
no tears too.
...
yesterday i was sort of emo when i was watching 'IMPIAN' in Suria. my fave story since i was young, with the handsome hero, Azhar Sulaiman. imagined myself as Amy. SS me. whuttadilly. just loved that film. plus i cried. it's quite a relieve actually. sort of me expressing myself through tears instead of words.
...
discovered that i didnt do much talking lately. (except for Sundays, with Diyy, Nurul and Adian. the craziee bunchies) maybee i toned down, like what my ol' friends claimed. odd thingy is that, my handphone toned down too. not much sms-es. not much calls. on the contrary, the bill increases each month. odd. speaking bout toning down, i didnt express much 'emo-ly' in my blog too. didnt find it as much 'private' compared to when i started blogging. wondering where the publicity came from... leave me pondering.
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my circle of friends became smaller too. maybee due to my 'anti-social' act, emo-ly inclined.. what have eu... or maybee... just maybee.
...
left me pondering, AGAIN.
signing off with a fake smile.