"i feel lost in myself.misery is clouding my judgements.he was getting onto a far plate....and i am still at shore....lookin for a light....but i am beamed by the ray of darkness."...[why must eu return seeping into my wounded heart?]
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might as well i carry on my life without him, instead of getting hurt and feeling miserable all the time. i do deserve someone better, someone who appreciates me all the time. to think of it, i want it all or nothing at all. to think of it, why am i still clinging on that undesirable fairy tale that ended more than a year ago. since i cant get all, i prefer to have nothing at all. my tears are drying up, and i find that it's useless. why waste tears over something which is not even worth it? so i'm looking forward to a better tomorrow. i have my 'kids' at school. they can give me all the love that i need... and im not ashamed to say that i love them. loads. i repeat: nothing at all. and no, i've not changed. maybe, i'll just wait... for another 'you'.
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"it's hard holding you, loving you, losing you.."
"how could this happen to me, i've made my mistakes, got nowhere to run.."