i placed a smile in my face today...
pretending everything was okay.
pretending i was fine...
pretending the smile was all mine.
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ouh well, like i said...
i was just pretending.
trust me, i said the truth when i said i was not angry.
... but instead, i was hurt.
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not everything has to be taken seriously my dear, but...
i meant it when i said i care for you.
i meant it when i said i'll lend you my shoulder.
i meant it when i said that you can do those 'word vomit' thingy to me.
i meant it...
... but i doubt so you understood my dear,
how our friendship meant something to me.
how much trust i placed on it.
i doubt you understood at all.
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it's not the matter of how long we are friends,
it's how much hope and love you bet on our friendship.
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