sometimes i wonder, if they really had forgotten me, or simply they just choose to put aside my existence. sometimes i wonder of those people who 'pass by' my life, & what if we picked up those pieces that we left? or perhaps, will i ever feel sorry of not giving a chance for us to be? what would we have become, cause i kept turning away whenev one get close.

yet again, when it comes to him, things just go ouh-so-natural. he came when i least expect it, when i wasnt searching. he was just there, waiting for me - & to think that i didnt know that he was there all along.

this morning, i took 168 to bedok. saw an old malay couple, very old. they were holding hands, more of support purposes - & they look so sweet together. the companionship of a loved one, i guess. both my grandparents didnt get to live with their partners till their old age. my late paternal grand-dad had been companion-less since months after kak yan was born, & my maternal granny, had been companionless since months after ami was born.

it is just that these lil things that pondered me, makes me appreciate him better, & totally not forgetting my loved ones. :)

i guess, i am just a lil 'feeling' now. :P