sometimes i would like to curl up & be universes away from society, melt into a black hole & stay invisible because what you cant see cant hurt you... or get hurt in return, but today i would like to be the sun & radiate because it is a wonder how little things can trigger joy. maybe believing isnt so hard after all. i am just sorry i am the one alternating between lukewarm & hot like a barbecue, but the thing with barbecues is that sooner or later all of it would get warmed up.