i dont know. maybe because i think we should be friends. i really want you to be my friend & i dont know if i can until i know you are not what they say.

i thought.

i thought maybe i wouldnt go out there.

one minute.

two minutes.

three minutes.

four minutes.

five minutes.

at six, i started hyperventilating.

seven minutes.

eight minutes.

at nine, i sat on the floor & sort of just sat there.

ten minutes.

& at eleven, i started to tear.

twelve minutes.

thirteen minutes.

fourteen, i fell asleep.