she has never felt so lost, unable to grasp hold of anything - be it physically or spritually. they slip through her fingers like sand. she feels herself wandering & straying; trying very, very hard to find her roots & ground herself. she claims to not be looking for stability, that freedom is all that matters; but given freedom, the wandering increases, along with responsibility & she feels more lost than ever, & then, there is the need to believe - that this is not all there is to life, that something more majestic & magnificent awaits. if one is just patient & has faith; that things will all fall into place. just believe.