do you get days when you just have this desire to consume & then feel guilty cause you are feeling so bloated?

i get these cravings & urges to cook & cook & cook & it is making me feel so fat, & rather superficial; but it is not that i can help it either.

i was talking to amirah the other day about these i-feel-fat days, & i guess some would comment on how superficial & vain we can get, ranting on the amount of fat we have when there are others who are more voluptuous. well, i guess it is just this mentality & media influence that got some of us girls preoccupied with weightloss & appearances; in fact, everyone are media victims in one way or another.

well, it is okay to have those days as long as it doesnt persist continuously, right? if one keeps on thinking about wanting to be skinny & just completely isolate food from your life, well that is another thing - altogether.

actually, i just want to lose some of the cheeks; just some. trust me, it is not an easy task.