anyhow, i have feelings for the O.C. that i cried crazily when marissa died & it was just so painful to watch julie, ryan & summer cope without her. then i remembered vaguely what i read about dying being easier than living with a loss, & i think it is true. when one die, he/she will just die & wont need to cope with anything after his/her death; while those that are still living have to face every day alone.

this is the saddest picture from the O.C. - the memory flashback that ryan gets when marissa died; the first scene of her in the sunset on his first day in newport & their lives changed forever after that.

i am a sucker for such things, & i like to believe that love lasts beyond death. i like to believe that people are generally good when they do bad things, there is an explaination behind all of it & they dont really want to be bad in the first place. i like to believe that good things will happen for those who hang on & believe. i believe that love always lasts & when people break up, it is because they choose not to work on it.