sometimes we are guilty for getting sick & tired doing the routined & repetitively ongoing tasks. i cant simply erase that, because it is here to stay. i dont know where this whole thing is leading me. i wish once, i could just let it go, let it live; but somehow, it becomes so redundant i cant believe it is really that.

i realize it wont be easy, this whole perilous journey that is entirely towards an unknown location. i find it exhausting to do it & the outcome, is very much expected. i hate it when i start feeling all so confident, but in the middle of it, i dont know how to move on. i guess, i should be more elated. i made a mental note to get out from home latest by 4.15pm. yes, i need to. get today's sessions done & over with; another cycle of emotional rollercoaster -- trying to convince the tutees that they are smarter than they think they are (self-esteem management), motivate them to give their all (final lap blah blah), & say the hellos & okays.

breather, come back here again.