i want to thank everyone who did care to drop me a text to ask if i am fine.

sorry that i didnt reply, sorry that i would made you all worried; but i dont really feel okay, yet. i hate how my heart thumps every time, how i hyperventilate in the middle of the night, how my tummy cramps each time i cough, how i would wake up feeling delirious; i hate how i fidget, i hate how i get paranoid, i hate how i wake up from an illogical dream every morning & stone.

i need to finish my course of tamiflu -- i need to get a grip.