in times when i have no one else to turn to but you, & it had to end this way.

i dont think life has ever looked so bleak for me; maybe once or twice, but i hate living like this. it is so emotionally draining -- i feel like running all the time, & i just feel like i am walking in a blur. like everything is glass, something small can just make it shatter -- i dont even know why.

the thing is, everything is supposed to be a-okay. i have my family, & friends who are only a text-message away. is it just me, that i am feeling all so moody cause i cant control myself? a friend said that i am persistent & impatient like he truly meant it, whereas another is pissed at me for being so patient & tolerant to a point that he thinks it will bring harm to me -- the irony.

everything had been pretty much routined for me for the past few months, & for a few more weeks to come. walking to & fro; from a tuition to another, & another, & tomorrow, it will be the same thing, on & on. so dont tell me that, "sometimes you will be in a phase where you just have to be with your own self. time out from friends." cause i had/am still in that phase, & i think i had enough; & all i seek for is just that someone to talk to. is that too much to ask for?